19 years ago Hayley Marie became my wife. It was the best day of my life. From the first moment I met her I knew I was deeply in love with her. It was genuine love at first sight.
We have had really great times together and I can’t remember very many bad times. We have never had a proper stand up row and hardly ever have a disagreement. It is not because I am soft and do whatever she wants. I just know that whatever makes Hales happy will make me happy.
I am usually good at finding the right words to express myself, but there are not enough or the right words to say what she means to me. She is absolutely everything to me, she is genuinely my soul mate.
We still hold hands when we go to bed, and if we are out anywhere. I still give her a cuddle and a kiss whenever possible, and give her a kiss if I am going out anywhere. We would both rather stay home sitting on the settee together and watch telly than go out.
She has to do more for me because of my MS, but she has never complained at all. It is hard for me to sit and watch her doing things I think I should be doing, but she just gets on and does them. We both know she is going to have to do more and more for me, but I don’t think it bothers her at all.
Thank you Hales for making me the happiest man I could possibly be, and for being the best wife in the world.
Happy anniversary, I love you Taz amounts twice infinity!
Rob
Took Hales out for a really nice meal last night at La Cultura Del Gusto in Protaras. Food was excellent and service was very good too. I was pleasantly surprised at how cheap the food was as well, as I reckon it is an above average restaurant.
I have been trying to think what to put in my blog today. Do I go more in depth about part of my life with MS, do I just say how I am doing now or do I talk about life pre MS?
So I thought I would just ask the question and see what feedback I get, so get them comments coming in! lol
Having a fairly good day today, legs calmed down to a mild ache this morning. It has been hot again today but not as humid as it has been recently. The heat does make me ache more but no where near as bad as when it is humid. I even managed to avoid having painkillers at lunch time as I wasn’t feeling too bad.
Don’t want to tempt fate but my bladder has been better than usual the last 2 days. Not had to visit the toilet half as much as usual, and even the urgency has been better. Now I have said that, I bet I am up more than usual tonight and constantly going tomorrow!
Anyway, let me know what you would like me to talk about next. As you have already seen, I am not embarrassed to talk about any part of my life.
Rob
A little bit surprised nobody has left me any comments recently. I was hoping that people would give me an idea as to what they are interested in me talking about. Not sure what to write about so guess I will just waffle on about something!
I have been trying to think how I can explain about the pain and other symptoms I have but struggling as to what to compare it to.
I have had quite achy legs today, possibly due to it being humid but also due to me pushing myself a bit more than I should! I do stuff that I don’t think is going to be too hard and then when I am staggering about and aching even more I realise it was a bit harder than I thought.
That is one of the most frustrating things about my MS, thinking you can manage things you used to find easy and then struggling to do them. Of course me being slightly stubborn and not very good at admitting defeat means I constantly do stuff that makes me ache more! I guess I look at it as my way of fighting against my MS.
The only way I can think to describe how my legs feel when they are not doing what I want them to do is how they are when you are totally drunk. The feeling when you are trying very hard to walk in a straight line and your legs decide they want to go in a different direction. I remember being like that a few times when I had been out drinking, only now I get the feeling without having had the pleasure of drinking first!
The pain and aching I can only compare to my long distance running days. They feel like I have done a 20 mile run and even though they have been aching like mad I have then run another 10 miles. That would make them ache really really bad and make them very wobbly, so I guess that is close to how they feel nowadays.
Like I said, it is difficult to think how to describe how they feel and I think that that is the closest I can manage.
The shop I work in used to be a hairdressers so they have some full wall mirrors still in there. Seeing myself staggering about and grimacing a bit with the aching is not a very good sight. It does make me realise how bad I am getting and how other people must see me on the rare occasions I let them see me that bad. I do try very hard not to let people see me that bad, but there must be times when it is seen.
A couple of Ibuprofen and sitting down resting for a while normally sorts me out, than I can try pushing myself again lol. I know I shouldn’t push myself too much but I have always figured that if I stop pushing so much then the MS will win and take over more.
Anyway enough of this waffling for now, don’t want to scare my readers off too much!
Rob
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