18th October 2017

Not quite so achy today, nice to be able to move around without wincing.

It’s been a few days of being achy so as I was kind of expecting I am quite wobbly today. I’ve noticed before that it happens like that, the achy days I have are followed by wobbly days.

I guess it’s just the way it works now, hopefully it means I will be back to normal in the next couple of days. I certainly hope so cos I get really annoyed with not feeling up to doing anything when I’m like this.

I’m sure it just looks like I’m being extra lazy but when I’m like this it’s extra hard trying to do anything. When I’m falling on the floor just trying to get myself dressed I know I’m in for a frustrating day!

I was hoping to get out in the garden to do a couple of jobs, but the weather is not great here today so all I managed was to clear away some of the fallen leaves. Fingers crossed it’s a little better tomorrow so I can get something done.

Obviously it won’t be much that I do get done, definitely frustrating seeing things that need doing and not being able to do them. I see things that I want to get done and I know it’s stuff I used to be able to do quite easily. It’s still really hard to accept that I just can’t do everything now and have to rely on Hales to do most things now.

As I’ve mentioned before, to me frustration is the hardest aspect of having MS. I really struggle to deal with it some days, it’s hard to explain how you can be frustrated with being frustrated!

I try really really hard not to show how I’m feeling on the inside, I even try to hide it from Hales. Not that I think it works to be honest, Hales knows me way to well to not know when I’m feeling down. And of course it only takes the smallest smile from her to get me back on the right track!

So even though I’m particularly wobbly today and a bit frustrated I couldn’t get out to get things done I’m fine. I know tomorrow is another day and by then I will have forgotten about how I am today.

The past has passed and can’t be changed, so why worry about it?!

Enough waffling for today, I’ll end this blog for today

Rob