Well I’ve had several weeks away from writing anything on my blog, some of it down to a bit of writers block some of it because I’ve been ill.
I’ve sat down quite a few times to restart the writing and ended up doing nothing as my mind was totally blank! I didn’t fancy just writing total rubbish so just left it when nothing was coming to me.
I’ve had a cough and a cold for just over a week now. The first couple of days were the worst, because I was quite down with having the cold it was affecting my MS. My balance was really bad and I fell onto the floor and then couldn’t’ get myself back up.
I had been trying to head to the toilet for a wee, so falling over and then not being able to get back up was not good. I suffer from urgency anyway and I guess being ill was affecting that too. Basically I was trying to crawl through to the loo, but I wasn’t quick enough and ended up having an accident. Not the first time I’ve ended up wetting myself but because I wasn’t feeling great it just made me feel really bad.
Crawling around on the floor, having no strength to get myself up was definitely not a great feeling. It kind of made me realise that this was probably what I’ve got to look forward too as my MS deteriorates. That made me feel quite down at the time, and I guess even slightly worried with how much worse my life could get!
I get more worried with what impact my deteriorating health is going to have on Hales than myself really. It’s just not fair in my opinion that Hales is having to deal with all the hurdles that are coming up because of MS. She just gets on with it though, never really complaining.
Luckily the worst of the cold was only the first couple of days, and just settled down to a normal cough and cold after that. I can deal with that, it’s when it’s causing my MS symptoms to play up that I struggle. It has dragged on a bit though, just the last bit of the cough to clear now.
Well that will do for today, at least I’ve managed to get a bit done for my blog. I’m determined to get back to getting stuff on here regular again, need to get the story more up to date anyway!
Rob
My Life and My MS 